So This Is Love...
Sunday, started watching Sad Love Story borrowed from Jin.
OMG!! The first episode only was super sad.
After watching the first 2 episodes that went online and chatted with Dearie. Chatted lots, also shared with him what that Korean drama is about, maybe watched finish liao will pass him.
其实现在，此时此刻，我很想毕业后就结婚了。
但是，以后的事大家还不知道。
更何况，翔也蛮担心过不了我父母那一关。
虽然说时间能证明一切，我觉得他会很辛苦。
他却说，“辛苦我也不介意！为了你，我也想坚强！”
对！我们一定要一起努力！
后来他又说，“一路上，pls be tolerant with me hor. I think I may piss u off a lot ba. haha."
哎哟！这个傻瓜！哪里会啦！我哪里有 piss off by him 过？
Anyway, Dearie said Gib & Jin will return to Cebu right after their got married, quit their job and live there. Hmmm.... Live together and buy bang sai zua together....lol! =X
Then I mentioned about the xing fu-ness I was experiencing whenever we do things together like going IKEA see furniture, go IMM see groceries, really love this feeling so much!
It was then he said, "I sort of deem you as my lao po liao haha."
HAHAHA!!! OMG!! Yuan lai that was how he felt! Hehe!! So happy!!!
突然有一股好强烈的感觉。
他也有同感，说，“对啊！可以马上结婚了。”
哈哈！那我也换 nick 成 “明天我要嫁给你啦！”
他吓倒了，说，"U serious ah? U prepared liao meh?"
我也毫不保留地说，“我是很想嫁给你咯！”
他又说，“Hanor, 看他们这样好像很 enjoy hor?"
Of course we won't know what happen to them when ppl or guest or not around. Probably will argue over toiletries and lifestyle, household chores etc. Then we went on talking about cohabiting & marriage....
I've some gal friends who live with their bfs, even some of my cousins are opting that. Well, the thought of me 同居 kinda freak me. My dad confirm will throw a fit knowing his daughter 跟男人同居.
But still, I feel that it's necessary to 'test out' before marriage to see if able to tahan living together or not.
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Monday, couldn't wait to meet Dearie to watch Pirates of Caribbean with him.
But got quite sian when he mentioned Dan is with him. 跟他约会，就好像得和他朋友一起约会. Met them at Seah St and we walked over to Cathay Cineplex and bought tics. Then went upstairs to buy popcorn & drinks.
Pirates is really super nice & funny movie!! Kudos to Disney!! Great work!!
I LOVE JACK SPARROW!!! WWWuuuuhuuu!!! How come got such a cute & funny character ah?? Will go and read up more on the creators... I'd agar watched the first movie, now will go back and watch again since Neng bought the VCD.
Left the theater after movie ended and made our way to have dinner/supper. Along the way, I kept humming the song of Pirates!! Cos it was really very catchy!!
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Wednesday, went over to Cuppage to meet WM for KTV after school.
Nothing much to talk about except there is another person added to our Book of Goons & Idiots...
That zuai looking guy who kept singing Weilian's song....wah cannot tahan the LJ face and he was singing all the gal's songs!!!!!! And a guy singing gal's song is COMPLETELY OOOOOFFFFF LOR!!!
We thought Liwen's bf was the worst we'd seen!! Yuan lai got other guys also like to sing za bor songs!!
He sang Jolin's SHUO AI NI!! We all super off liao...and he also sang MA DE LI!! WTF IS THIS??? And singing in hall cannot adjust the key, we'd all just sing in original key.
WM buay tahan and excused himself and went outside and laugh!! Wah lau eh...I sit inside there I also buay dong.... He also sang Elva's version of I Believe!! WTF LOR!!! And Zui shou xi de mo sheng ren. I gal, I sing also find it high... he could actually sing it. What's with all these guys who DO NOT HAVE ANY BASS AT ALL!!! ALL WANNA TURN AH GUA IS IT!??!?!?!?! WM kept walking in & out cos he buay tahan...idiot, leave me there inside feeling extremely sian. Wu siao boh~~~~~~
Bill time and WM wanted to use his bday voucher and treat me this session as belated bday present but the lady said that Hall do not accept voucher, only room can! SIMI SAI LAI EH!!! The voucher also never state say hall cannot use leh!! WM was super pissed. I was too... cos I swear we used the bday voucher at hall before. Argghhh~~ But bo bian la, foot the bill, shared cab lor...
As Xiang would be driving me home (so that we can have more time spent together), we left his place at 230am. Actually throughout the whole day, he got lots of calls from his friends as they would always jio him out. And he'd even get calls at as late as 230am...
Was inside the car and apparently his friends wanted to have supper or maybe just wanna meet up with him or something. He told them he'd be seeing me home and suggested probably can eat at the kopitiam at my place. So he went over to pick them up...
那或许我不该‘以为’。
他朋友叫他出去，如果没有特别的理由，他是不会拒绝的。
我又不是不喜欢他和朋友出去，我也没说不准。只是我不太想要‘一起’。
为什么不能送我回家了再去找你的朋友呢？
反正结果都是要回去勿兰的嘛。何必麻烦把全部带到裕廊呢？
我自己本身不太喜欢他朋友在一起的时候去找他，
因为会显得好像我介入他们的话题。
可是有时候，真得很想见他，所以也不会去管其他的事，
只要能见到他就好了，我也不介意其他人把我当透明。
可是，我在跟他在一起的时候，
而这时如果他朋友说要见面，我也提过了，
如果没有特别理由，他是不会拒绝的。
所以也理所当然的让他们来加入我们。
可是他们是一伙的，大家那么多人在一起，
很快的立场又会变成我是那个介入的。
当然我是可以把他的朋友当成是我的朋友，
这样一来我也不需要觉得自己很 extra.
可是这群朋友都是和他先前认识许久的朋友，
我要怎么努力明白他们的 lingo, 笑话，共同话题，是很困难的。
有时他们会提到我不明白的东西，我会主动去问去了解，
可是他们的解释总是推来推去，“噢！你去问谁谁谁咯！”
如果是有典故的，他们又得费唇舌向我解释某某话题的来源。
让我觉得我好像在花他们的时间，
不能够 move on their topics, 那我也不好意思再问下去。
所以只能靠观察，观察他们的肢体语言，去明白笑话中是什么意思。
可是我和他的朋友还没有开始培养默契，让我觉得很伤脑筋。
再加上我反应迟钝，又害羞，又不好意思，
我也不敢讲也不敢提我的感受，只有静静在哪里。
那如果是我静静的，没有 imput 的话，
Ultimately, 我在场的意义是不是很 extra?
D & S seemingly wanted to talk to me, I didn't feel like replying until Zach OEI me then I eng siew replied and apologised that I couldn't talk much due to my sore throat, very paiseh. So they gave me remedies to make my throat feel better. I thanked them for that and kept quiet again.
Reached the carpark of Fei Fei Kopitiam, parked and went to find a table and sit down and made our orders. Xiang & I had teochew porridge and 2 person coast $8.60! That was quite steep. I didn't know it was so expensive! Piang~ Next time don't eat that liao. So we all ate in silence. Occasionally 帮翔挟菜 and he did the same for me too.
I was pretty sian until...
D dropped the fishball he tried to pick with his chopsticks. He wanted to bring the fishball from the soup to his bowl but it dropped on the table. He wanted to pick it up with his chopsticks from the table but it dropped again. S was like, "Why you don't want to poke it instead? Easier ma!" D replied, "Aiya! Forget it la!! It goh (rolled in Hokkien) so many times, don't want to eat liao la!!!"
HAHAHAHA!!! And I was there laughing like siao za bor. Wah lau!! How come always chu pattern one. Somehow I felt much better. So after finished out food, the 2 guys went to one side for smoke while Xiang asked me what happened. I told him nothing happened.
事实上，有问题的人是我。
跟翔或其他人，或是 situation 没有关系，
因为我没有办法让我自己融入状况，我还在处于状况外，
因为我还没有说服自己，我不能拥有他的全部。
他也不是完完全全属于我，因为他是属于很多人的。
Time for me to go, bade D & S goodbye and Xiang walked me home from the Kopitiam. I kept grabbing his hand tightly.... then walk to my block, up the lift and at my corridor. I kept holding back what I wanted to tell him. I kept "我...我..." but 我不出.
我想告诉他，我以后不会这样小心眼了。
我会好好接受他的一切，包括他的朋友。
By the time I reached home, I was very tired le.
After watching the first 2 episodes that went online and chatted with Dearie. Chatted lots, also shared with him what that Korean drama is about, maybe watched finish liao will pass him.
其实现在，此时此刻，我很想毕业后就结婚了。
但是，以后的事大家还不知道。
更何况，翔也蛮担心过不了我父母那一关。
虽然说时间能证明一切，我觉得他会很辛苦。
他却说，“辛苦我也不介意！为了你，我也想坚强！”
对！我们一定要一起努力！
后来他又说，“一路上，pls be tolerant with me hor. I think I may piss u off a lot ba. haha."
哎哟！这个傻瓜！哪里会啦！我哪里有 piss off by him 过？
Anyway, Dearie said Gib & Jin will return to Cebu right after their got married, quit their job and live there. Hmmm.... Live together and buy bang sai zua together....lol! =X
Then I mentioned about the xing fu-ness I was experiencing whenever we do things together like going IKEA see furniture, go IMM see groceries, really love this feeling so much!
It was then he said, "I sort of deem you as my lao po liao haha."
HAHAHA!!! OMG!! Yuan lai that was how he felt! Hehe!! So happy!!!
突然有一股好强烈的感觉。
他也有同感，说，“对啊！可以马上结婚了。”
哈哈！那我也换 nick 成 “明天我要嫁给你啦！”
他吓倒了，说，"U serious ah? U prepared liao meh?"
我也毫不保留地说，“我是很想嫁给你咯！”
他又说，“Hanor, 看他们这样好像很 enjoy hor?"
Of course we won't know what happen to them when ppl or guest or not around. Probably will argue over toiletries and lifestyle, household chores etc. Then we went on talking about cohabiting & marriage....
I've some gal friends who live with their bfs, even some of my cousins are opting that. Well, the thought of me 同居 kinda freak me. My dad confirm will throw a fit knowing his daughter 跟男人同居.
But still, I feel that it's necessary to 'test out' before marriage to see if able to tahan living together or not.
-
Monday, couldn't wait to meet Dearie to watch Pirates of Caribbean with him.
But got quite sian when he mentioned Dan is with him. 跟他约会，就好像得和他朋友一起约会. Met them at Seah St and we walked over to Cathay Cineplex and bought tics. Then went upstairs to buy popcorn & drinks.
Pirates is really super nice & funny movie!! Kudos to Disney!! Great work!!
Left the theater after movie ended and made our way to have dinner/supper. Along the way, I kept humming the song of Pirates!! Cos it was really very catchy!!
-
Wednesday, went over to Cuppage to meet WM for KTV after school.
Nothing much to talk about except there is another person added to our Book of Goons & Idiots...
That zuai looking guy who kept singing Weilian's song....wah cannot tahan the LJ face and he was singing all the gal's songs!!!!!! And a guy singing gal's song is COMPLETELY OOOOOFFFFF LOR!!!
We thought Liwen's bf was the worst we'd seen!! Yuan lai got other guys also like to sing za bor songs!!
He sang Jolin's SHUO AI NI!! We all super off liao...and he also sang MA DE LI!! WTF IS THIS??? And singing in hall cannot adjust the key, we'd all just sing in original key.
WM buay tahan and excused himself and went outside and laugh!! Wah lau eh...I sit inside there I also buay dong.... He also sang Elva's version of I Believe!! WTF LOR!!! And Zui shou xi de mo sheng ren. I gal, I sing also find it high... he could actually sing it. What's with all these guys who DO NOT HAVE ANY BASS AT ALL!!! ALL WANNA TURN AH GUA IS IT!??!?!?!?! WM kept walking in & out cos he buay tahan...idiot, leave me there inside feeling extremely sian. Wu siao boh~~~~~~
Bill time and WM wanted to use his bday voucher and treat me this session as belated bday present but the lady said that Hall do not accept voucher, only room can! SIMI SAI LAI EH!!! The voucher also never state say hall cannot use leh!! WM was super pissed. I was too... cos I swear we used the bday voucher at hall before. Argghhh~~ But bo bian la, foot the bill, shared cab lor...
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Thursday, after school video shooting class ended in school today, I was told by Xiang that he will be dropping by Orchard to accompany Joe & Daniel to shop for stuff.
Dinner was La Meridien to have the Korean Cuisine. Authentic korean food at food court price!! Hehe!! So Joe couldn't decide which bag to buy... he'd go back and think about it. Everyone parted and heading home individually.
Dearie & I took 7 from Park Mall and terminate at Clementi interchange. After which I feel asleep on his shoulder....
翔的肩膀好温柔，好舒服。
躺着躺着，不知不觉好像睡着了。。。
印象中，我的头好像一直要滑下去的感觉。
而他每一次都把我的头轻轻放回他肩膀上。
接下来发生的事，我有点迷迷糊糊了。
清醒过来的时候，已经要到 Clementi Interchange.
Whenever I get home, the usual routine is to go online and waited for Dearie to get online as well so we could chat.
I told him that I was very happy cos it was the first time I felt asleep on a guy's shoulder, MY bf's shoulder. Hehe!! My head must have been too heavy that was why it kept slipping off. Then he said my head isn't heavy, he pushed my head up cos he scared I break my neck cos the bus jerk & herk and my head kept sliding down.
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Friday, was going to watch Nacho Libra at CWP with Dearie...
Dinner was La Meridien to have the Korean Cuisine. Authentic korean food at food court price!! Hehe!! So Joe couldn't decide which bag to buy... he'd go back and think about it. Everyone parted and heading home individually.
Dearie & I took 7 from Park Mall and terminate at Clementi interchange. After which I feel asleep on his shoulder....
翔的肩膀好温柔，好舒服。
躺着躺着，不知不觉好像睡着了。。。
印象中，我的头好像一直要滑下去的感觉。
而他每一次都把我的头轻轻放回他肩膀上。
接下来发生的事，我有点迷迷糊糊了。
清醒过来的时候，已经要到 Clementi Interchange.
Whenever I get home, the usual routine is to go online and waited for Dearie to get online as well so we could chat.
I told him that I was very happy cos it was the first time I felt asleep on a guy's shoulder, MY bf's shoulder. Hehe!! My head must have been too heavy that was why it kept slipping off. Then he said my head isn't heavy, he pushed my head up cos he scared I break my neck cos the bus jerk & herk and my head kept sliding down.
-
Friday, was going to watch Nacho Libra at CWP with Dearie...
...which was a really damn retarded show with simple story line but the dialogue and the expressions were really funny.
Since his house was near CWP and not rushing time so walked back to his place. Reached his place and had dinner with him and realised his brother was home. And his dad also just came back. So I went to say hi to them.
Since his house was near CWP and not rushing time so walked back to his place. Reached his place and had dinner with him and realised his brother was home. And his dad also just came back. So I went to say hi to them.
As Xiang would be driving me home (so that we can have more time spent together), we left his place at 230am. Actually throughout the whole day, he got lots of calls from his friends as they would always jio him out. And he'd even get calls at as late as 230am...
Was inside the car and apparently his friends wanted to have supper or maybe just wanna meet up with him or something. He told them he'd be seeing me home and suggested probably can eat at the kopitiam at my place. So he went over to pick them up...
As soon as the 2 guys joined in, they were talking among themselves while Xiang drove on quietly. I was super sian... and dulan...
怎么会这么不识相呢？我还以为我可以一整天和翔在一起。
怎么会这么不识相呢？我还以为我可以一整天和翔在一起。
那或许我不该‘以为’。
他朋友叫他出去，如果没有特别的理由，他是不会拒绝的。
我又不是不喜欢他和朋友出去，我也没说不准。只是我不太想要‘一起’。
为什么不能送我回家了再去找你的朋友呢？
反正结果都是要回去勿兰的嘛。何必麻烦把全部带到裕廊呢？
我自己本身不太喜欢他朋友在一起的时候去找他，
因为会显得好像我介入他们的话题。
可是有时候，真得很想见他，所以也不会去管其他的事，
只要能见到他就好了，我也不介意其他人把我当透明。
可是，我在跟他在一起的时候，
而这时如果他朋友说要见面，我也提过了，
如果没有特别理由，他是不会拒绝的。
所以也理所当然的让他们来加入我们。
可是他们是一伙的，大家那么多人在一起，
很快的立场又会变成我是那个介入的。
当然我是可以把他的朋友当成是我的朋友，
这样一来我也不需要觉得自己很 extra.
可是这群朋友都是和他先前认识许久的朋友，
我要怎么努力明白他们的 lingo, 笑话，共同话题，是很困难的。
有时他们会提到我不明白的东西，我会主动去问去了解，
可是他们的解释总是推来推去，“噢！你去问谁谁谁咯！”
如果是有典故的，他们又得费唇舌向我解释某某话题的来源。
让我觉得我好像在花他们的时间，
不能够 move on their topics, 那我也不好意思再问下去。
所以只能靠观察，观察他们的肢体语言，去明白笑话中是什么意思。
可是我和他的朋友还没有开始培养默契，让我觉得很伤脑筋。
再加上我反应迟钝，又害羞，又不好意思，
我也不敢讲也不敢提我的感受，只有静静在哪里。
那如果是我静静的，没有 imput 的话，
Ultimately, 我在场的意义是不是很 extra?
D & S seemingly wanted to talk to me, I didn't feel like replying until Zach OEI me then I eng siew replied and apologised that I couldn't talk much due to my sore throat, very paiseh. So they gave me remedies to make my throat feel better. I thanked them for that and kept quiet again.
Reached the carpark of Fei Fei Kopitiam, parked and went to find a table and sit down and made our orders. Xiang & I had teochew porridge and 2 person coast $8.60! That was quite steep. I didn't know it was so expensive! Piang~ Next time don't eat that liao. So we all ate in silence. Occasionally 帮翔挟菜 and he did the same for me too.
I was pretty sian until...
D dropped the fishball he tried to pick with his chopsticks. He wanted to bring the fishball from the soup to his bowl but it dropped on the table. He wanted to pick it up with his chopsticks from the table but it dropped again. S was like, "Why you don't want to poke it instead? Easier ma!" D replied, "Aiya! Forget it la!! It goh (rolled in Hokkien) so many times, don't want to eat liao la!!!"
HAHAHAHA!!! And I was there laughing like siao za bor. Wah lau!! How come always chu pattern one. Somehow I felt much better. So after finished out food, the 2 guys went to one side for smoke while Xiang asked me what happened. I told him nothing happened.
事实上，有问题的人是我。
跟翔或其他人，或是 situation 没有关系，
因为我没有办法让我自己融入状况，我还在处于状况外，
因为我还没有说服自己，我不能拥有他的全部。
他也不是完完全全属于我，因为他是属于很多人的。
Time for me to go, bade D & S goodbye and Xiang walked me home from the Kopitiam. I kept grabbing his hand tightly.... then walk to my block, up the lift and at my corridor. I kept holding back what I wanted to tell him. I kept "我...我..." but 我不出.
我想告诉他，我以后不会这样小心眼了。
我会好好接受他的一切，包括他的朋友。
By the time I reached home, I was very tired le.
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